10 Years

Wow it has been 10 years since Blaise and I meet at the Simmons Tournament at home in 2000. We are getting ready to hit the road to the Bay today for Easter weekend and the tournament. It is always a fun time and hanging out at the Bayplex, it brings back memories of junior high and high school at the old Fourum watching hockey.

I have to admit that the past few years have been challenging to sit and watch all the kids play and cheer for " daddy". This year I may not spend as much time at the rink as I am feeling kind of vulnerable. I told myself I was not going to set any timelines in the journey to adoption however I realized this week that I unconsciously kind of hoped that maybe this year I would be going to the rink with a little one to cheer on daddy. OK I said it out loud ! Oh my nerves why do I set myself up like this. I realy really thought I was not setting any timelines and was real with my feelings.

Well I am human and Easter is another kid intense holiday with new life, and joy and kites and pail and shovels. I am going to try to focus on what Easter is all about and ask for the Lord to bless us on our journey and be grateful for all the blessings I have right now in our life.

I am also going to focus on getting fit and my running and set new goals in this area. Oh yeah a goldern retiriever puppy and a trip to Scotland and Ireland are on my list as well. !

Nameste

Karen

Temporaily Waiting

I have not posted lately as I do not have any news to share. We recieved our final approval on Feb.1 and are waiting to meet with our adoption social worker. However it will take time and we have to wait. I have been so busy with work that I have not had much time to focus on waiting. I have been doing some reading and scanning adopttion websites and blogs. I came across this song from Carrie Underwood. Temporay home, beautiful message. So I am termporaily waiting and trying to see the blessings in every day. I also say a little prayer for my " rugrats" wherever they are.

Blessings Karen

Enjoy the song.

Prayer for Adotptive Parents

Week one of 2010 almost complete. It has been a year since we began our journey. Today we recieved word that our file will be reiviewed the end of January. I am trying to practice patience and graditude this year. I came across a beautiful prayer on another site. This prayer really speaks to my heart.

The “Prayer of Abandonment” for Adoptive Parents

Father, we abandon ourselves into your hands,
to send a child … or not … as you see fit.
You by whom the Word was made flesh,
send us a miracle, if this is what you desire.
Or lead us to her, if that be your will.
We do not ask for guarantees; no parent can.
Only light enough for the very next step.
We do not ask for a perfect child,
nor can we promise to be perfect parents.
Whatever you choose for us, whatever you desire
we abandon ourselves to your perfect will.
We are ready to offer our daily “yes,”
until that perfect will be revealed in us.
And until, at last perfected, we bear witness
to the work of redemption you began in Eden.
We love you, Lord, and offer ourselves to you,
wholly and without reservation.
We surrender ourselves, moment by moment,
knowing that this is only the first small step
Of a lifetime of surrender,
so that we may be made more perfect in love.
That we might imitate, on earth as in heaven,
the redemptive love
the adoptive love
the selfless love
with which you first loved us.

From Extradordinary Mom's Network
Heidi Hass Saxton
http://extraordinarymomsnetwork.wordpress.com

New Beginnings

Happy New Year! I have always loved the energy and spirit of New Years Eve. I try to take some time to reflect on the good and bad of the past year and make some intentinos for the coming year. This year I have found myself reading some beautiful blogs from amazing women writers. I have been searching for some inspiration to guide me on my journey to being an adoptive mom. I guess I am trying to find a balance between the traditions and rituals of parenting that I have experience from my mother, the natural kind loving way my sisters interact with their children and lean about new ways of pareneting that speak to my heart.
The blogs I have visited are honest expressions of living a spirit filled, compasionate, peaceful family life. I am grateful for having an open heart to guide me in my journey to motherhood. I am grateful for my friends and family for leading the way. Thank you to the kindred spirits of the blogging world that have spoke to my heart.


The begining of the year is a time for new beginnings and I am excited for the blessings that 2010 may bring to Blaise and I this year.

My theme for 2010:

Create and Celebrate everday miracles

May you be blessed
May you be happy
May you be at peace

Blessings
Karen

Christmas and Waiting

Christmas and Advent are really seasons on waiting. I have had a few very special blessings during Advent. It has been such a busy fall and things seem to be moving so fast and easy to get caught up in work, studies and neglect what is important. Blaise and I do enjoy going to Sunday Mass but sometimes we miss a few weeks. I really wanted to get back to church during Advent. Last week I again realized that Advent is about waiting and preparing our hearts for God's gifts. The sweet little priest did a wonderful homily and talked about waiting and how God wants us to come to him an trust in his promises. HMM OK God you are shouting at me again! I was moved to joyful tears as I realized I have no control in this adoption process and that if I prepare and wait patiently God will unfold his plan for our family.It was such a weight off my shoulders. After the homestudy was completed I was glad to have this part of the process completed but a little anxious about the next steps and wondering " how will we be able to know from a file if this is the child for us ". I realized that we have to have faith and let God work in our lives. So waiting and preparing for Christmas this year is extra special as I compare it to waiting and preparing our hearts to be parents.

Blessings of the Season
Karen

Adoption Music

Last week while doing a search for adoption music, I found this song from Steve Curtis Chapman, " When love takes you in ". He is a Christian song writer and an advovcate for adotpion and has adopted children. Last summer his family tragicaly lost there 4 yr old daugher in a car accident on their property. This song was written before that event as a love song to their adoptive children. Very powerful and of course makes me cry. Thought I would share .

Cheers
Karen

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TY_FpV05n-c

Santa Shuffle Dec. 5, 2009

HO Ho Ho ! I did it ! I did it! I really ran 5km. Ok so it was a fun run but I did do my 10 min running with 1 min walking and survived ! Blaise and Piper were my cheerleaders. Piper recieved lots of attention. I was so happy to have met my goal. Great start and I am not planning on doing the 5km clinic at Running Room and see how that goes. I am so proud of myself for finally doing it ! Yeah!

Almost 3 weeks till Christmas. I spent the day in my jammies cleaning the house and getting the Christmas decorations out. I love Chrismas music, I get so emotional this time of year. I believe the " think veil " between heaven and earth this time of year is very thin. I swear I could cry at the drop of a hat ! I would like to think it is my sensitive little sould being moved by the spirit. Sister Jovita explained that the gift of tears is a blessing. I like to think of it like that ! Gotto go I just heard Bruch Gouthro, " Boy from the Woods" starting on the CD gotta go have a good cry to that one !

Blessings of the Season
Karen