Waiting

OK I am home in Halifax after a great week home with the folks. I am so lucky my folks are willing to help out any of us kids. I am doing much better recuperating but still tired and very slow moving. I just came home from my first trip around the block with Piper. OK my 89 yr old Nanny walks faster but Piper was very patient but bored. Now I am pooped !

Today I realized now that my surgery is over and I am on the mend I can now concentrate on the next steps of preparation for adoption. HMM not quite sure what that is as we are still waiting for a Social Worker to contact us to do the homestudy. It has been 3 months since we completed the course and had all our paperwork in. So here we are waiting. From reading other blogs and forums on adoption I know this is all part of the deal of adoption. Waiting and Waiting and more waiting. I am not really anxious yet but it is hard to prepare and get going when nothing is happening. I am reading books on adoption and parenting but still feel like it is kind of a dream right now. On the other had I say a little prayer ever now and then for our " kiddies' that may already be in the world waiting for us to be mommy and daddy. So there you have it I guess we are all just waiting. OK God I am ready so give me a sign of what is to come. For now I will enjoy our summer ( if we ever get some sun) and look forward to some camping trips with friends.

No Place Like Home

Well I am home in Glace Bay being waited on my Mom and Dad. Day 4 post op, ovary and cyst removal laproscopically. I am doing OK but very slow moving and very very tired. Something about coming home to the parents house that makes me always feel like a 13 yr old kid. Mom and Dad came to Halifax for a few days and then packed me in the car with pillows for the 5 hr trip to Cape Breton. Blaise is busy this week so it is great that I can go home with the folks. Last night we had a family supper at Nina's which was great but I was very tired. The trek to move and change position is at the moment very challenging. So I spend the day propped up in one place or another. How pitiful! I am trying to to focus on the " instant menopause" as of yet. So far so good ,I mean I suppose I thought I would have all the of symptoms at once ! I did chat with my Naturpath and going to be trying the natural way with dealing with any symptoms I may have. I think it is only fair that since my body did not quite work out the how to make a baby that I should have an easy go at menopause. LOL Oh well I will wait at see.

Right now focusing on healing and relaxing and getting lots of rest. Blaise and Piperdog are fending for themselves while I am being pampered by the folks in Glace Bay. Off to curl up with mom and watch " Judging Amy " or another lifetime rerun.

Nova Scotia Girl

Last evening Heather and Cathy and I headed to the Valley for a memorial service for Tanya's father in law. It was a very quick decision but of course we wanted to go and support Tanya and Chris. The drive down was so lovely. Everything is green , flowers blooming and sun shining on the Bay of Fundy at low tide. Absolutely breathtaking. With a memorial service on my mind it was interesting to reflect on how much we take for granted in our lives. The beauty that is so close to us in Nova Scotia is so amazing . I think memorial services forces us to take a step back and take a breath and be thankful for the gifts in our life.

Today I headed to Antigonish for the day ( the opposite direction from Kentville) and again the lush green and variety was wonderful view. Two weeks ago Blaise and I were vacationing in California Palm Desert,and LA. I am greatful that we took advantage of the opportunity to explore this part of the world but it was not as great a shiny as I had imagined. This time of year very hot and dry. Brown and more shades of brown and only greenery was not natural . The desert and Joshua Tree park was so neat to see but the snakes and dust not my favorite. I kept saying I can't wait to see green again. So my drives the last 2 days really reinforced that I am an East Coast girl and love the green, ocean and even the rain !

In one week I will be preparing for surgery. I am having my one remaining ovary removed. I am OK with this as I have come to terms with the end of my fertiliy and have moved on. However I am not crazy about hitting menopause automatically. Oh well one day at a time and I am sure I will be fine. I keep telling Blaise to enjoy pre menopause me as I may turn into a crazy person!
Change is in the air and I just have to roll with it.