Stars on Ice

I went to see Stars on Ice tonight with Danielle and Grace. It was fantastic. I have not really paid much attention to figure skating in 10 years. However with the great Canadian showing at the Olympics I was interested in going. Of course I have always loved Kurt Browning and he did not disappoint. What a showman ! He even skated in hockey skates. The gold medal sweethearts Virture and Moir we beautiful and their gold medal routine brought tears to my eyes.

6 year old Grace really got into the show and loved the music and the sparkly dresses of the girls. Her expressions and hoots and standing ovations were very cute. After the first standing ovation she asked her mom " Why are we standing up and cheering, can't we just yell sitting down ? Daniellle explained that if she thought that a skater did a really really special job then a standing ovation is a way of shwoing appreciation. She stood for every skater after that !

Thanks Dan and Grace for a fun night

Today is 10 years officially from the date Blaise and I met at the Bayplex by the bar ! Yep we each still insist that the other offered to buy a beer. Wow 10 years, goes by very quickly. Lots of fun times and adventures. I am truly blessed to have Blaise in my life. I try not to take his presence for granted. However at present we are both watching the Penguins and Ottawa game and nervous for OT. I am so happy he is patient with me and my crush on Sidney Crosby ( me and millions of others) of course he likes to remind me I am way too old for him. My reply is " Well in my daydreams I am only 25 ! ( another reminder that I am a " cougar" to Crosby )

Ah what a sweet honey I have ! 10 years and many more to come

"There' s no place like home"

I love coming home to my parents house and Glace Bay. You can see the ocean from almsot every point in Glace Bay. This morning it was really thick fog but you could tell the sun was going to break out. Being Good Friday it was a very quiet and almost reverent kind of day. I went for a run and tried to focus on my surroundings and being strong and following each breath. It is an amazing feeling although very hard to keep with you. Running in the fog was lovely as I am still feeling sad. However I found the fog very comforting and tried to "find my path" along the way. I am realizing I can use running as a meditation and if I try to stop my " monkey mind thoughts" I can not only strenghen my body by running but I can strenghten my meditative prayerful practice as well.

Many blessings for this Easter Weekend.

Nameste
Karen

10 Years

Wow it has been 10 years since Blaise and I meet at the Simmons Tournament at home in 2000. We are getting ready to hit the road to the Bay today for Easter weekend and the tournament. It is always a fun time and hanging out at the Bayplex, it brings back memories of junior high and high school at the old Fourum watching hockey.

I have to admit that the past few years have been challenging to sit and watch all the kids play and cheer for " daddy". This year I may not spend as much time at the rink as I am feeling kind of vulnerable. I told myself I was not going to set any timelines in the journey to adoption however I realized this week that I unconsciously kind of hoped that maybe this year I would be going to the rink with a little one to cheer on daddy. OK I said it out loud ! Oh my nerves why do I set myself up like this. I realy really thought I was not setting any timelines and was real with my feelings.

Well I am human and Easter is another kid intense holiday with new life, and joy and kites and pail and shovels. I am going to try to focus on what Easter is all about and ask for the Lord to bless us on our journey and be grateful for all the blessings I have right now in our life.

I am also going to focus on getting fit and my running and set new goals in this area. Oh yeah a goldern retiriever puppy and a trip to Scotland and Ireland are on my list as well. !

Nameste

Karen

Temporaily Waiting

I have not posted lately as I do not have any news to share. We recieved our final approval on Feb.1 and are waiting to meet with our adoption social worker. However it will take time and we have to wait. I have been so busy with work that I have not had much time to focus on waiting. I have been doing some reading and scanning adopttion websites and blogs. I came across this song from Carrie Underwood. Temporay home, beautiful message. So I am termporaily waiting and trying to see the blessings in every day. I also say a little prayer for my " rugrats" wherever they are.

Blessings Karen

Enjoy the song.

Prayer for Adotptive Parents

Week one of 2010 almost complete. It has been a year since we began our journey. Today we recieved word that our file will be reiviewed the end of January. I am trying to practice patience and graditude this year. I came across a beautiful prayer on another site. This prayer really speaks to my heart.

The “Prayer of Abandonment” for Adoptive Parents

Father, we abandon ourselves into your hands,
to send a child … or not … as you see fit.
You by whom the Word was made flesh,
send us a miracle, if this is what you desire.
Or lead us to her, if that be your will.
We do not ask for guarantees; no parent can.
Only light enough for the very next step.
We do not ask for a perfect child,
nor can we promise to be perfect parents.
Whatever you choose for us, whatever you desire
we abandon ourselves to your perfect will.
We are ready to offer our daily “yes,”
until that perfect will be revealed in us.
And until, at last perfected, we bear witness
to the work of redemption you began in Eden.
We love you, Lord, and offer ourselves to you,
wholly and without reservation.
We surrender ourselves, moment by moment,
knowing that this is only the first small step
Of a lifetime of surrender,
so that we may be made more perfect in love.
That we might imitate, on earth as in heaven,
the redemptive love
the adoptive love
the selfless love
with which you first loved us.

From Extradordinary Mom's Network
Heidi Hass Saxton
http://extraordinarymomsnetwork.wordpress.com

New Beginnings

Happy New Year! I have always loved the energy and spirit of New Years Eve. I try to take some time to reflect on the good and bad of the past year and make some intentinos for the coming year. This year I have found myself reading some beautiful blogs from amazing women writers. I have been searching for some inspiration to guide me on my journey to being an adoptive mom. I guess I am trying to find a balance between the traditions and rituals of parenting that I have experience from my mother, the natural kind loving way my sisters interact with their children and lean about new ways of pareneting that speak to my heart.
The blogs I have visited are honest expressions of living a spirit filled, compasionate, peaceful family life. I am grateful for having an open heart to guide me in my journey to motherhood. I am grateful for my friends and family for leading the way. Thank you to the kindred spirits of the blogging world that have spoke to my heart.


The begining of the year is a time for new beginnings and I am excited for the blessings that 2010 may bring to Blaise and I this year.

My theme for 2010:

Create and Celebrate everday miracles

May you be blessed
May you be happy
May you be at peace

Blessings
Karen

Christmas and Waiting

Christmas and Advent are really seasons on waiting. I have had a few very special blessings during Advent. It has been such a busy fall and things seem to be moving so fast and easy to get caught up in work, studies and neglect what is important. Blaise and I do enjoy going to Sunday Mass but sometimes we miss a few weeks. I really wanted to get back to church during Advent. Last week I again realized that Advent is about waiting and preparing our hearts for God's gifts. The sweet little priest did a wonderful homily and talked about waiting and how God wants us to come to him an trust in his promises. HMM OK God you are shouting at me again! I was moved to joyful tears as I realized I have no control in this adoption process and that if I prepare and wait patiently God will unfold his plan for our family.It was such a weight off my shoulders. After the homestudy was completed I was glad to have this part of the process completed but a little anxious about the next steps and wondering " how will we be able to know from a file if this is the child for us ". I realized that we have to have faith and let God work in our lives. So waiting and preparing for Christmas this year is extra special as I compare it to waiting and preparing our hearts to be parents.

Blessings of the Season
Karen