The Race is on !

We started our home study today. It does feel great to move to the next step of our journey. Ok well not really a race but still have to be prepared and ready. Tonight I ran 8 mins ! I felt great and really energized. I am so amazed that I am actually doing it. I have always been a " runner want to be " but did not commit. Starting the running run was a great step forward for me. I am going to keep with it and set more goals. So as I run and prepare for a race I am also preparing for the next step in our lives. They both feel exhilarating !

Please keep us in your prayers as we continue our journey

Karen

Moving Forward

I am happy to report that we are finally moving forward with the next step in our adoption journey. We are starting our homestudy visits on Monday. It is so weird to be waiting for this next step and now it makes things so much more real. I am not worried because I know Blaise and I can talk ! No question there, but it is going to be a very reflective time. Friends ask me if I am excited. You know I am but I don't think I can really be excited until we are actually have a child or children that will be ours. So here we go another step on the merry go round.

On another note I am really enjoying running. Well OK I am almost running , I am up to 6 minutes and walk 1 min and I have not died. It is very interesing for me and really meditative for me. I want to be a fit mommy ! Blaise says he wants a hot mommy but I will settle for fit !

In October we spent time with the Pillings. It was great to have some time to spend with Valeries kids. They are so amazing and well rounded.Busy Busy oh boy are we in for a shock. I was exhausted after 4 days with them. Oh well we will adjust I am sure. I can't wait to introduce our future kiddies to the cousins. I posted a picure of uncle Blaise with the kids. I love this picture as Blaise looks so happy to be surrounded by the kids, he has a really sparkle and lots of love in his eyes. He is going to be a great daddy.

Divine Dog

Divine Dog

Today I recieved the most beautiful video and song about dogs. Of course I cried.Piper dog has certainly taught me many lessons. He is very intuitive to my emotions. During my struggles with inferitliy he was there to let me cry and and let me hug him and lick my tears away. He has taught me to try to live in the moment and walking meditations in the woods or park with him have been special blessings in my life. It makes me happy thinking of how Piper dog will assit our adopted children settle into our home.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H17edn_RZoY

Nameste
Karen

Running

I finally did it, I finally signed up for learn to run clinic and I did not die. I have always wanted to run but did not make it a priority. So here I go,!

No news yet on adoption but I am OK with that and learning to be patient. However first thing I do when I get home is check the anwering machine.

Nameste
Karen

Balance

I have just had the most amazing two weeks. It is really nice to finally feel like I getting rebalnced and back to " me ". The week after Labor Day I was in Banff for a week of work and meetings. It was amazing, weather was warm and clear and the view of the mountains from my room and conference room was do die for.
The meeting was for an Aborigianl Health project that I am working on. We started our day with a prayer and welcome from an elder and a sharing circle. Very powerful to include the spiritual component to the meeting. I was overcome some days with pure joy and knowing that I was meant to be in that place. Things happen for a reason and the energy of the mountains and land was very much present for our discusions.

On Saturday I hiked Sulphur Mountain with Andy, Amanda and her family. It was 2,5 hrs and Sheely and I held up the back. What a feeling to make it to the top , Ok I am pitifully out of shape. Definiely another mountain top experiece for sure.

When I came home I decided to go back to yoga classes. My first night back I almost crided I felt at home on my mat. Ahh Breathe ! The energy and movement of energy in yoga is what I love and that yummy feeling at the end of a class. The mind, body, spirit connection as well is what I enjoy from yoga. I need this help keep me balanced and remember my mountain top experiences and take them with my in my work and day.

I need to be balanced and free to allow my heart to be opened to the gift of children . Especially if they are broken and need special healing. So far menopause and I have reached an agreement, I accept you are present but I am not letting you control my life ! Again balance !

I started reading " The power of Now " Eckhart Tolle , I picked it up in the Calgary airport. It is such a Karen book. Too bad we have to read so many books with similar messages to really get it. I accept infertility and menopause but there i still is that draw to 'poor me" boy oh boy the mind likes to try to suck us down into our pitiful selves ! Really great read and one that needs to be returned to again and again ! Unforutnately as if we GOT IT how different life would be.

I am happy to say that Zachary Daniel King was welcomed into the world 2 weeks early Sept. 12, 2009. He is precious and I have a great story for himn as I learned of his birht on Andy and Pauls' football pool !

Nameste
Karen

September Start of a new year

I love September it still feels like the start of the year for me. I think I enjoy it more than New Years. The weather starts to cool off and new beginnings of school and projects and work gets into high gear again. September makes me nostaligic for boing back to school and the fun of the first week back at classes at St.FX. Oh my nerves those were the crazy days. So much fun.

Today in church there was not one but two Christenings. OK lord you really do know how to try my strengh and resolve. I am soo much better than I was a year ago at handling these surprses and not almost passout from trying to hold in my tears. I am OK to let one or 2 slip away and I really do feel the spirt moving in me. Today was was daydreaming about when we will be Christening our adopted children. So I am very hopeful and know it is going to happen and trying to visualize and be calm but I want it right now.

I have enjoyed looking at my friends summer pictures and first day of school pictures and looking forward to that for our family. However it does remind me of when I was single and " all" my friends were married and I felt left out of the the club. I felt then like I do know that something wonderful and amazing is in store for me and that God will answer my prayers in a way that I could not even imagine.

So even with my moments of frustration I am hopeful and patiently waiting.

I am also patiently waiting for baby King to arrive the end of September and baby Stiles. I am so happy for Leah and Sylvia and can't wait to welcome their bundle of joy to the world. It is very humbling to watch my friends go through the journey of motherhood.

Que sera sera !

Karen